Ya know, all damn week I get my happy ass up, drag into work, and do my job.
On the weekend, I'd like to have a little "me" time. (And by "me" I don't just mean "me". Mmmkay?) But no. The snow fairies are dumping all kinds of that freezing white shit on the road tonight, of all nights, when I really really really wanted to hang out with New Guy. It doesn't help that he lives completely on the other end of our fair city -- however smallish it may be to some of you Megopolis dwellers -- it's far to us, ok? So there goes my Friday night...and yeah, it's a pity party at Elle's.
But it's not just that. I had a perfectly miserable day at work. I am by no means a perfect manager, and I don't want to be perfect, because perfect isn't fun. We run a good store. We have good people working there. I think I am pretty accommodating to work for, and I try to make sure everybody gets along. Because we work so closely together and because most of us have been there a very long time, we do behave like something of a family. And with families come dysfunction. There are arguments, there are disagreements, there are grudges and hurt feelings.
Today, it was my normally hard-assed, bitchy, smack talking self who got her feelings hurt.
Me, who can so easily let that stuff slide off my back, who understands that there's no way to make everybody happy all the time, who doesn't much care if you're whispering about me, because I do happen to have other stuff to worry about.
Today, I let it get to me. And tonight I'm hurt, and sorrowful, and still just a little bit mad. Tomorrow, hopefully, I'll be able to push those feelings aside and just behave like I should, and get my work done, and go home. And maybe by Monday I'll have figured out how I want to handle some things...because changes are a-coming.
You want it, you got it.
Friday, December 12, 2008
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12 Ramble on, y'all....:
L,
Momma wants you to know you are loved and I hate that you are bummed out. Ice sucks and so does a missed night with The New Guy. Sucks. I think you rock, and I love your honesty. As I often tell my kids, think in terms of "is this good enough?" and most of the time the answer is yes. I told Toots today while she was bumming, "There are people in the cancer hospitals all over Houston who would happily trade places with you today just to know they have tomorrow - is that good enough for now?"
I'm sorry today was a bummer -and you are cool and you did your best - that's really all that matters, right?! XOXO
I love you, Momma! Thanks for the kindness, and the perspective. All is needed and appreciated :) Toots and Shark are so lucky...why do you think I want to come live with you? :) xoxo
Geez Elle (glad your fingers healed btw ;)....why in the 'f' do you let these people get to you?
Here's the 'Efen Philosophy': If someone makes you feel bad after all the good things you've done for them over the years (and I know that you have) then they aren't worth the fuckin trouble of fretting over. You just have to figure out some way to really fuck them. Then...they'll be the ones with hurt feelings. See....problem solved :)
Hope you're better.........honey ;)
Sorry you had a rough day and even sorrier you have to work on a Saturday. I really try to not let things get to me - and sometimes that's easier said than done. {{{Hugs}}}
Efen: you know I normally shrug this shit off! I guess it all just hit me at the wrong time. Come Jan 1, there's a new sherriff in town. THAT oughtta be fun ;)
ETW: I usually do too...but I will take the hugs :)
Tell that new boy to get in his car and come rescue you!
With Bailey's and a vat of ice cream or something!
Kristin: LOL...he tried! Even after I told him not to b/c parts of the interstate were closed due to all the wrecks. Had to eat the ice cream by myself :P. It was either that or the Grey Goose, and I was out of lemons!
Managing people sucks sometimes. Sorry you had a bad day. Remember don't get upset get even :)
Sorry you had such a shitty day and snow too - that sucks! Well my friend - I can't make it warmer, I am unable to make the day go away - but here is what I can say ... any 'ol time you need to complain, to bitch about anything ...
"if you haven't got anything nice to say - come sit down next to me!!"
Hope next weekend is better!
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All right, who needs their ass kicked for hurting my Elle, I'm on my way.
Snow and Ice suck ass! I can't stand anything that keeps me in the house. Even though I normally stay in anyways I like the OPTION of getting out! I'm sorry you and New Man didn't get to hang out!
Don't let work assholes get you down. It happens to the best of us. Sometimes, though, it is therapuetic just to wallow in it.
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